Sometimes it’s ok to Feel Like a Bag of Shit

UUUUUAAAGGHH I feel so unmotivated today. Little bit of anxiety as well. Which I deserve, considering I drank all of the things on Saturday and woke up face down on my bathroom floor wearing one clown shoe, a fuzzy jacket and sunglasses. . I plan to cure this 2 day hangover with fresh air, a run, yoga and good food. I am usually quite a positive person, but there are times when I feel like a bag of shit, and sometimes it’s ok to not be ok.

Last week I posted about the importance of a good morning routine. And damn am I smart. I let my morning routine slide, started waking up a bit later etc, and I was way less productive, and in turn felt shit about myself. So this week I am going to take my own advice and keep up with my morning routine. I really don’t need to be getting up at 6am, but I feel so much better when I do! 

On the other hand, sometimes it’s ok to feel like a bag of shit. Sometimes I feel uptight, moody, emotional, like a psychopath (certain times of the month) and that’s ok. Sometimes I get annoyed at myself for being upset, sad or angry, I feel like I should always be positive; but what is so important to remember, is that whatever we are feeling is ok. We need to allow ourselves to feel whatever it is, watch the emotion rather than identifying completely with it, and let it pass through us without judgement. 

Shit is weird right now; having to work from home, or not working at all, not knowing when this will end, and when it finally does end, what life will look like on the other side. With all this uncertainty it might be hard to know what to do, but we can take this as an opportunity to be still, and try to be at ease with the not knowing.

We should embrace new possibilities, and draw on our inner strength. And always remember how much we still have to be grateful for. I feel lucky to have extra time to focus on things that are really important to me, like yoga and meditation, writing, talking with my friends and family back home, spending more time with Aran, and drinking wine lol. 

The way the world is coming together is so amazing it makes me want cry. I truly believe that everything happens for a reason, and I think we are healing. Our world is healing. Humanity is healing. I think we are going to come out of this thing stronger, and with a more positive outlook on life. Maybe now we can finally start to see ourselves in one another, and maybe we will start to share a little more love. Because love is really all we have. 

We are all in this together. <3